I'm so glad that today is over. So I will be fasting for the next two days and starting December first, I'm gonna be fasting 6 days a week, only allowing myself 300 cals for the day, preferrably liquid. Once a week, I will eat 1 meal in front of my family, as close to a normal portion as I can, to keep them placated.
I'm going to aim for exercising around 200, eating 200/300 cals right before I exercise to use as energy.
I know what to expect now of Christmas, so I can better prepare myself. Let the weight loss begin. I WILL NOT hate myself forever.
I guess I'll start by posting the numbers tomorrow, and see what I can do. Now that it's cold outside, I probably won't exercise as much, so I just have to decrease my intake to match my lack of exercise. I hope that logic works, anyways.
Happy Thanksgiving, everyone!
I am me.
I am not perfect.
I try to do the best that I can, set goals that I can reach, and do anything to achieve them.
But I've gotten a little lost along the way, and now here I am, struggling with Anorexia, Depression, and Self Harm.
My blog isn't supposed to be a happy place. Or an advice giving place. It's just a place that I can write out all my thoughts, everything I feel, without being judged!
Maybe you'll find solace in my struggles, someone to understand. Maybe you'll find interest in watching my journey through my life, or maybe you'll even take one look at this, and turn away. Every reaction is a lesson, and I am here to learn.
This blog is access into my most private thoughts.
With that being said, enjoy!
With that being said, enjoy!
This is a great plan, J. I'm glad you're thinking positively - you WON'T hate yourself forever, you will relearn how to love yourself. You are being so strong, sweetie. Xoxo
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