I feel so fat. I feel like my fat is bubbling out of my clothes and I'm disgusting.
I didn't weigh myself again, because I was in a rush. I'm liquid fasting today, so hopefully I can weigh and report my weight tomorrow.
Everyone is telling me how good I look now that I've lost some weight and secretly it makes me happy. I just need to lose more. Much more.
Yesterdays intake was fairly okay.
I had 3 egg whites (51), banana bread (120), coffee (150?), dinner (230?) and a sip of carbonated lime-grape juice (50). So my total for yesterday was 501. I think it definitely could have been worse, but it could have been better. And my weight shows it. I'm only down .2 lbs today, and I'm fat.
So there you have it - My success and failures all in one.
I am me.
I am not perfect.
I try to do the best that I can, set goals that I can reach, and do anything to achieve them.
But I've gotten a little lost along the way, and now here I am, struggling with Anorexia, Depression, and Self Harm.
My blog isn't supposed to be a happy place. Or an advice giving place. It's just a place that I can write out all my thoughts, everything I feel, without being judged!
Maybe you'll find solace in my struggles, someone to understand. Maybe you'll find interest in watching my journey through my life, or maybe you'll even take one look at this, and turn away. Every reaction is a lesson, and I am here to learn.
This blog is access into my most private thoughts.
With that being said, enjoy!
With that being said, enjoy!
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