Speaking on the topic of jobs - I applied to three more places and got rejected in the same breath for.. Wait for it.... No job experience! I must also be wayy over emotional because of my period - I've been crying all morning. Ugh. I'm never this bad... Ever. So I decided to take a drive to the mountains with my aunt and a friend. The best and worst idea I've ever had. Best because we smoked a lot of weed and played in the snow and had fun. They lightened my mood, considerably. Bad because I ate a giant ass peanut butter cup, chips, drank Whiteout Mtn. Dew, and we still haven't finished our trip. Punishment for being a failure. It's finally cold enough that people don't ask me why I'm always wearing long sleeves.
I'm so self-destructive that without the people around me to ground me, I'd be either dead of near it. I hate myself so much. Not that that's new. But how much longer can I stand against the storm?
I am me.
I am not perfect.
I try to do the best that I can, set goals that I can reach, and do anything to achieve them.
But I've gotten a little lost along the way, and now here I am, struggling with Anorexia, Depression, and Self Harm.
My blog isn't supposed to be a happy place. Or an advice giving place. It's just a place that I can write out all my thoughts, everything I feel, without being judged!
Maybe you'll find solace in my struggles, someone to understand. Maybe you'll find interest in watching my journey through my life, or maybe you'll even take one look at this, and turn away. Every reaction is a lesson, and I am here to learn.
This blog is access into my most private thoughts.
With that being said, enjoy!
With that being said, enjoy!
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